Thursday, December 4, 2008

Three "Not So Nice" Confession Thursday

1. One of my co-workers that just got laid off came in today to finish cleaning off her desk and computer. It should have only taken her a couple of hours, tops. It took her 6!!! Now, why do I care how long it took her? Because my other co-worker (who's still with the company) and I had plans to rearrange the office today so we could have a fresh start and be more efficient since there are only two of us now. We have to move forward with the new and can't focus on how we used to do things. AND we have to move forward now because we don't have time to wait. We have too much to do, too much to restructure and reorganize to wait. Because she stayed for most of the day, we couldn't do all of the moving we wanted to until 5 pm, and now we'll need to spend more time on it tomorrow, which we did not want to do because we actually have to get some work done tomorrow. I feel bad for her because she spent 8 years with the company and is having a hard time moving on, but she CHOSE the voluntary lay off. She CHOSE to leave the company and move forward. And it was frustrating that she wasn't allowing us to do the same.

2. I talked to another one of my co-workers that was let go and he was extremely bitter about the whole thing, which I would have been if it had happened to me. However, I got seriously pissed off listening to some of the things he was saying, like how the office wouldn't succeed with only one sales person and laying him off was a recipe for failure. He was not very good at this job. He didn't even make it to 25% of his goal for last month! I have basically been the only sales person in the office since I started with the company. He spent all of last month selling stupid $75 packages while I went after the bigger sale. He was perfectly content to only make his new acquisition goal and not strive for his revenue goal. He never listened to anything anyone ever said and was completely in la-la land most of the time. There are so many more not so nice things I want to say right now about him and his performance, but being that mean is not going to make any difference right now, so I'll stop now.

3. I honestly feel that the two people let go from the sales team is not a terrible thing. After thinking about it long and hard, I realized that Kim and I worked harder when it was just the two of us over the summer, but we were running so efficiently that when we finally had the "help" of the other two on the sales team, it felt more like road blocks than relief or help. I'm also pretty sure that if we weren't having lay offs, both of these people would have been let go anyway, and I wouldn't have been very sad about it because their lack of drive messed with my performance.

I know these thoughts aren't very nice....but I don't feel bad about them. I have a big job to do with getting our office truly successful, but I'm up to the challenge. And now that we'll be a tighter running ship again and I know my accounts, know my territories, and know my products, I have a feeling we'll be able to do it.


Jerry and Suzy said...

Negative thoughts happen. Your feelings cannot be denied by anyone else, because those feelings are very personal, unique to you, and as true as anyone else's feelings.

Dwelling on them, of course, affects your own life and performance, so your choice to put them out, then put them aside and push forward with your own life and duties is powerful. Good for you! You're tops with us!

~G~r~a~m~m~a~ and Papa

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